THE LORD'S BEEN DOING SOMETHING REALLY DEEP in my heart lately, and especially so these last few weeks. i dont think the experience could be in any way described as 'hormonal' or even cliche, but i feel like im starting to discover something more about being, for want of a better word, human.

being of an emotional disposition in character, i find it very easy to connect quickly with characters from movies or shows, and i soon get lost within a voyeristic life-a life looking in on another. i've never really understood why, and in the past, lonliness has sent me to familiar characters for comfort. but lately, these familiar characters are revealing something new to me, and i know that it is only God that is speaking, purely because i can hear His voice through them.

their experiences and their situations have been dreamt up by writers who share the same human quality as the rest of us, and express through something we can at least hope to understand, things we all share. and it encourages me that they are expressions of something real. although often heightened with comedy and unrealistic one liners, there are still characters desperately lonely, looking for fulfilment, searching for acceptance, being failed, feeling like failures, doing well, getting married, dying, being born, living and learning.

ive been meeting a friend recently who shares with me parts of her personal walk. everytime we meet and everytime she shares some more, i'm moved in my heart to realise what a beautiful exchange occurs. in being raw and honest with each other, we are playing out a state of 'relationship' that God intensely desires from us. and the more i meet with people i love, be it short or long, the exchanges we experience together remind me of my loving Lord who wants the same.

sharing these intimate and raw truths with one another creates something that you both experience-the time together goes beyond the systematic rule of number 1 talking and number 2 listening, and then in reverse, but it fabricates, through each word, something to experience together.

in the depths of a soul lies a longing to be in relationship-an echo of our creator, and in the deep of my spirit is a new feeling of discovery about humanity's role with its creator. we are meant for relationship-that exchange of spirit that goes beyond a conformity, when you share intimately everything. and when that fear of rejection sets in, to carry on further.

and in being afraid of revealing yourself yet continuing to gently bare your soul, you engage in the most beautiful exchange ever known to man.